Grab your tissues folks....

Sadly it's not looking like this one is gonna hold on to that uterus like we hoped it would.  Very sad...now get over it and make me laugh clowns.  I cried for about 1 minute and I've moved on.  Gotta remember that I GOT PREGNANT...I've been waiting to say that for almost 5 years and honestly it was amazing to be able to say it.  I'm going to cherish those moments and remember the positive feelings I felt.  Hang up those phones...if you call me crying I'm gonna hang up on you...I promise. 

We go back to the doctor on Wednesday, I'm waiting for the "bleeding" to start and if it hasn't by then I'll be getting one of those delightful shots you all know I love.  Can't wait for that.  I've missed them....NOT.   Now....where are those chocolate chip cookies and barbecue potato chips...gotta go.  xox

The hump result....

Looks like we are finally over that hump!!!  We are pregnant!!!  I can't even explain the emotions going thru me at this moment but I am surprised that a piece of me is scared sh$!@less.  It's been so long and I've been mesmerized with the "getting pregnant" part that I forgot to obsess over what happens when I am actually pregnant.  I guess I've got to run out and buy "What to expect when expecting".  Luckily, We've got some amazing family and friends that will become our preggapedia's.

We are still very early on...so shhhhhhh!  So many things can happen over the next few months.  But no matter what, this was a huge HUMP to jump...I am pregnant...and I can get pregnant.  That is what really matters. I CAN GET PREGNANT!!!!  We go back to the doctors on Friday to get another blood test to confirm and check my levels.

Boring

Things have been very boring lately... almost didn't want to update the blog because with all the activity over the past few months, I've turned into a complete snore.  We did our transfer this past Sunday...it went very smoothly.  No trips to the hospital AND I was able to pee all on my own (this is a huge win for me after a procedure).  It's actually an amazing procedure.  I couldn't see much, but the look on my husbands face was all I needed.  No matter what happens, it was just nice to see such happiness.  We've gone through so much (luckily, I don't remember much thanks to the drugs) but he's been on a serious emotional roller coaster and I'm happy its over for the moment.  Looks like 2012 will be our year!  Now we wait 10 days.  

I've been considering cheating and taking a preggo test, but the doctor says that it most likely would not be accurate.  I think to keep my sanity I should just stay away from it.  I'm crazy enough.  Now back to my work life and time to enjoy what will hopefully be our last 9 months of quiet.  

Dreaming

I've been dreaming a lot since I left the hospital.  Almost too much.  In last night's dream, I was laying on my back in the ocean on a beautiful Caribbean day and all of the sudden a gigantor wave the size of a 30 story building came and crashed over me.  I wonder why all these dreams have fluid in them.  I worry every day that I'm going to get scared of drinking water.  Add it to my weird list of fears....fear of sharks...check...fear of snakes....check....fear of grass (yes people, grass, it happened when I moved to LA)...check...fear of all fluids, apparently...check.   I'm sure they have some rehab facility somewhere that will help me work through this.  I'll have to get over my fear of them though...so thats gonna be a while.  

Moving on from water and juice, after weeks of resting and relaxing we are on our way to transferring 2 embryos into their new home (aka my uterus).  They started me on a crazy regimen of medicines to get my uterus ready for these little ones...oh, I forgot to add, fear of medicine...check.  This Sunday we'll be implanting our 1 and only mr. embryo, we'll call him Pinky as he is currently frozen in the pink fluid (which I'm sure will cause his very own fear of fluid) and one of our 8 lovely lady embryos.  

Watch out 2012, we're only excepting positiveness this year.  We learned a lot in 2011 but lets be real here, I am very happy that it's over.  Happy New Year!